Finally Goa... Again



What Do We Really Want???



14.11.2012 – I’m back !!! It’s been ages since I posted my last blog, so here goes once again. Before reading this, take a look at the caption picture on my blog page... its called "What do We Really Want? I had posted this picture in 2008 after our first trip to Goa. It was then that i started blogging and I posted my first blog called “Finally Goa”. Finally Goa was meant to be about friendship...a place where we came together as friends. Almost 5 years later much has changed in my life and in all our lives. Unfortunately not all of us in this picture are still in touch anymore. We've all grown up and this time our paths have taken us in different directions. I guess that’s how it was meant to be.

Well yesterday i came back from my second trip to Goa. I visited the same spot where this picture was taken and many other places where we had visited the last time around. I should probably have felt a sense of nostalgia as old memories came flooding back. In some ways maybe i did, but more than anything i was overwhelmed with a feeling i still can’t describe....

Life has changed so much over these past 5 years... My best friend got married, i came back from UK, I got married, my professional life changed again and again, my best friend now has a 6 month old baby, UK again, Malaysia, Thailand, Hua Hin.... So much has happened and Life's just been so unpredictable...

 

Coming back to my trip to Goa, I’m a guy seriously in love with water and beaches (although I couldn’t swim even to save my life). Beaches kind of always spell Party…Fun…Crazy (atleast that’s the definition which my head holds),the waves crashing into you, the force of the wave when it hits you, the sound of the waves at night…its seriously something out of this world. However, this time it wasn't about the fun.... it was about reflection, peace and serenity. Sitting in the water, with my back towards the sea, my eyes closed, i could just hear the waves approach and then feel the thunderous impact as it crashed on me followed immediately by a sense of calm and silence as if the sea was asking everyone to keep quiet, just as a teacher would tell their students in class. Can’t really describe the feeling other than totally overwhelming.

Many a times I used to turn and face the sea, trying to push the waves back as they approached me… but every time I tried to do this, it just pushed me back and knocked me over harder than before. It’s awesome fun splashing around in the water and getting knocked down, but whenever I wanted some peace and wanted a break from all the salt water entering my mouth and ears, I always had to turn around and stop fighting the waves and just let the waves carry me in whatever direction it wanted to and to whatever distance it had to…

Kind of reminded me of life (atleast my belief about life)… Just need to stop fighting and worrying about the things that happen to us and just go with the flow. We never know where it will take us or in which direction, but no matter where we land up, it’s always going to be where we were supposed to be…

Even today i still have one unanswered question.... "What Do We Really Want?".... ONLY TIME will tell.... Till then, I guess I got to keep trying to connect the dots... Life is Unpredictable so I just need to stop predicting it and go with the flow !!!